If im pregnant again..I will be pissed and the world is going to end.
Fuck

so, Mardi Gras is on its way. I don't think im going. ONE our Truck got broke into and our gps and Kales DvD player got Jacked. Fuckin NIGGER! ugh.
Other Great news. I got a new bed. Fuckity fuck yeah....!!!

Denise..Remember when we first started making Icons??? haha....By the way what program do u use now??

Ok, I guess Ill let everyone know whats up with me these days. Ill try my best stop posting such random shit.
Really, Life is kinda low right now. I mean I have a lot of shit on my mind. Im happy and then im not but my life is actually AWESOME. Sometimes I just imagine if I changed that one thing...would I be here. If i didnt go to wendys on my lunch break 3 in half years ago would I be here????? Funny How Jake was always One day away from me. WE knew the same people, and some how we were always conected. I would be behind him on my way to work and never even noticed that thats the father of my children. Its funny how life works.
He really does make me happy and Im wondering what if I woulda ended up with Danny. Ive finally relized that he isnt the one for me. He never loved me the way I loved him. Things would have always been hard with him.
Oh and Jake is going to go back to school. He wants to become a Doctor. He hasnt decided on what kind but He deff said HE WONT be A vagina doc. He couldnt handle looking at Old lady punna nay. So the first Two years are going to be very very stressful and hard. I know it. So Im going to be the bread winner. Im going to see if I can get this medical codes down and i can make an easy 5grand a month and up to 25gs. now Id be happy with a measly 1000. I need to get on the ball. Next summer Im determend to buy a house but with him going to school Im not sure if we can wing that. I just know I need mmy car paid off and wham its house hutting time.
I Know Jake is smart and I suppport him. Im even willing to move in with my mom for two years that way he can have complete study time. He wont be able to work at all. The hospital he works at now said they will work with him while he goes to school that way he can still earn a little extra cash.

with him wanting and becomeing a doctor (I know he can do it) Do you know what this means for me. Fuck all those bitches at school who fucking laughed at me for wearing the same clothes as last year. Fuck all those fucks who made fun of us traleir park kids. Fuck them..fuck um. I bet half those fucks dont know how to change a tire...oil and figure out shit in life.

One thing i will not do is become them. This i promise. Ill still be rollin in my paid for jeep. Ill move my mom in her own house and take care of her. Fuck.

Good things come in time.

Im just a lucky girl I guess.

Pizza is done.
-=-

So I decided that I need to get the kids some winter clothes..its already to get kinda chilly up here. I went to old navy to look for a fleece jacket. Well I found a little girl one (20 bucks) None for Kale so decided to get a zip up hoodie (22.50) now the hoodie is very thin but looks cool. Im pretty sure Kale could care less if he looks cool. I could careless since he might only wear it a few times and outgrow the damn thing.
Then after picking out a pair of jeans i decided that those Jackets just wont cut it and put them back.
Now..I dont mind getting clothes at walmart. Im all about the dollar.
so I find a jacket..winter type deal thick warm great for winter...PLUS it comes with a fleece....wow..just wow.. two jackets for the price of one. (22.50 same price as old navys thin shit)
Kale has a blue and black and jodi has pink and black. EXactly what I wanted from Old navy and old navy kinda sucks if you ask me. The clothes just...are just so thin cheaply made.
ok
that is all.

My teeth are killing me. I just started grinding my teeth in my sleep and it kinda freaks me out.
well... I guess I should update this a bit more. Not like I forget I just never use this. I went to biloxi for the weekend and Had A BLAST! I miss friends but seeing them every now and then makes me have a great week. Its hard having a conversation with a 2 year old and a little girl who only knows how to say a few things. Ive been thinking about getting a weekend job that way I can meet new people but Jake hates the idea. Only because I want to work at a bar. Oh well.
He's been very clingly to me and very lovable. NOT him at all but it makes me happy. He says he loves me more and more everyday. I think hes afraid that im going to leave him haha..and thats another reason why he wont let me work at a bar. He says he knows someone better looking with more money could take me away. WELL...He is the father of my children so..that wins and plus I dont care about money. I like working and waiting for things. It just makes that thing special. Shit if i could get what ever I wanted any time I wanted it I bet I would be bored with it and not take care of it. When we die we dont take any of it with us so all these cool gadgets that ill only use a few times can sit where they came from.


I think Im going to cut the grass...Or just think about it.

computers really hate me right now.
My laptop wont turn on at all. I have tried everything. I could careless about it. Its just odd..its about a year old. Im really mad because it has cs3 and all of my pictures of jodi. Ill get a new computer but i want all my shit off of it.


oh and then i went to hook up my PC and that mother fuck wont go past a certain windown. fuck.


stupid

well.....Im loving it.

I hate fuckin packin. I just look around at the mess and say, WHERE THE FUCK DO I START. Then i sit on the computer for ever and then its the next day.

I wonder if cali sucks?
I hope its ok.

we could be moving to california. I never ever lived in another state. Jake has gotten a very very good job offer. I support him in everything that he wishes to do. This is a dream dream job. He will be working at laguna hills...yeah next to laguna beach.
Orange county here i come.
but im scared. Everyone is beautiful and I just dont think ill fit into that . IM a southern girl. Ugh. fuck. IM hot shit too. Im a momma haha.



just thought id share.

I am so upset about those 4 babies. I did not know them but I guess having two children close to those babies ages its really hit me and it being so close to home. I just dont understand people, I know someone would have taken those little angels. What went through that fathers mind looking into his childrens eyes and droping them from a 80 foot high bridge. Just driving over that bridge was scary.
How did someone not see him throwing his babies off? If someone did see him throw something wouldnt they have thought why was he stopped at the highest point??? I gues it wouldnt go through someones mind that he was doing that.
I do wish Death for the man. I just hope he gets the shit beat out of him in jail and I hope he remembers that day and his kids for the rest of his life.

I hope those babies did not suffer long. I wish that wouldnt have ever happend to them.
I hope the mom is getting a lot of help. Just thinking of what those babies went through keeps running through my mind and I just cant help but thinking about them. I wish the best for the family

so tired, I feel so much better since my teeth problems are somewhat for the better GONE.
tired....
fuck. the house is a total disaster.
I became a druge dealer lol sold my motorcycle stuff ro 3 lenses and a nikon
drove 4 hours to Auburn and another 4 hours back.




where the fuck is everyone anyway? Most of my friends are cock suckers but I made a new friend and shes cool but into drugs and what not.


this is a sloppy entry but who gives a shit, I am tired and its my journal.

The Dentist visit went quick. 6 teeth need to be removed, looking at my x ray he noticed I had only one top wisdom tooth. He was a lot better than the first Dr. He actually explained everything on the x ray and I understand more than I did Tuesday. The total amount is 1,340 dollars. I still don't know how we are going to come up with this money. I might even just get three teeth done or at least the ones that really bother me. Man, oh Man. I'm just stuck.
lortab 5's dont even knock out the pain. I have to take two of those just to feel somewhat comfortable. I tell you this freakin sucks.
I have lost 3 pounds this week because I can't eat. I get little sleep.

Well, now im looking into getting a job. Hopefully I find a decent paying job.

Why me! I have a Dentist appt. today and well im going to see the dental sergon. The dentist I saw tuesday told me i need to have the 4 wisdom teeth removed and 3 others. HOLY CRAP.
Besides that Im happy about it, my teeth are fucking killing me and have been but not even lortabs are helping. I mean child labor is much less painful (remember I didnt have any drugs) least you get a break for a min. I can't sleep I can't eat and I just cant function. I have not eaten in 3 days because of this. I can only drink out of a straw.
My ear hurts. My head hurts...my whole fucking mouth hurts.

so now I must sell my car to get these 7 teeth pulled. I don't have the money and thats how bad I hurt. I am willing to sell my car. Now im going to be back where I was, with no car stuck at home all the time.

Each Grandparent has a kid today...least I might get some decent sleep.

Maybe ill go crazy and take a shit load of meds to get rid of the pain.

fuck you stupid teeth!! Being Pregnant 2 years in a row didn't help at all. Thats when they started getting holes in them.

I wish santa was real or Id ask him for 1500 dollars.
better yet I wish it was income tax time or i'd be able to keep my car.

all proud mommys fill this out


1.age?
16 months -
a week old

2. name?
Kale Roger Hampton
Jodi Rae Hampton

3. birthday?
June 20, 2006
Oct 14, 2007

4. time of birth?
12:06 pm
3:20 am

5. how long did your labor last?
Both about an hour

6. who was in the room when baby was born?
Jake, His mom and my mom
with jodi just Jake

7. how long did u push?
With Kale maybe 20 min. with Jodi 10 min

8. weight?
Kale- 6lbs 8oz
Jodi- 6lbs 14oz

9. length?
Kale-19in
Jodi- 21in

10. any hair?
Kale- hardly none..still hardly any
Jodi- A good amount...and jet black

11. who does baby look like?
Kale- Jake
Jodi- I think she looks like her dad but its hard to tell

12. be honest...how much weight did u gain during pregnancy?
With Kale- 60lbs
Jodi- 25lbs

13. was baby early or late?
Both early

14. who drove u home from hospital?
Jake

15. how many baby showers did u have?
none

16. when did baby start sleeping thru the night?
Kale around 3 months
I hope Jodi does too

17. did u breastfeed?
Tried with Kale..Jodi No

18.if not, what kind of formula ?
enfamil with lipil

19. who keeps your baby the most?
Me and Jakes mom

20. when do u wanna have another one?
I am done.

21.. how did u pick the name?
Jake picked them

22. how did u know when it was time to go to hospital?
I was induced with Kale. I knew when I felt like i had to go to the bathroom..thought it was the taco bell and then i saw blood...eww right..no painfull

23. who drove u there?
Jake

24. did u go home or somewhere else when u left the hosp.?
Straight home.

25. anyone spend the night with u first night home?
It was just me jake and kale..and Jodi

All proud mommies fill this out...

I think I may be having a baby soon.
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i need to time them gahh

Happy Fucking Holidays.



Toni has gone mad

Jake's mom called and she didn't really sound that mad but was just calling to let me know that she is giving Britnay..philips pregnant wife her cell phone because she doesnt have one.
I call Philip to see if she is still mad at everyone and he said yeah. She said they laughed about what she told me.

Here is what she told philip that she said to me.

she doesnt need me and jakes grandbabies because philip is going to make a cuter one and yadadayayda fuck that
she didn't say anything like that to me. Why is she still making stuff up??


I married into one fucked up family.


DRAMA BULLSHIT.

she is nuts! 

I have been waiting for two weeks for pay day. It seems like every time Jake's pay day comes around its gone just as quick as he got it. we have no food. Hard times but he pays off the trailer next month and he almost has the one of the loans off. I met him and he had so much debt but he is getting out of it and I am very proud of him.
I should cut him some slack. yeah right...he gets paid 24.50 an hour works four days a week and he makes 4 grand a month..yeah slack. He has the best job ever!!!
ok
well he is givin me 100 dollars to spend on myself..not the kids not food..just for myself..fuckin sweet.



im going shoppin

Can this get any worse.
My mother-in-law (Toni) has lost it. She hates her son in law (ADAM) we all arn't really to fond of him but this is so bad. Toni doesn't want anything to do with her Daughter or Jake. She told me that Jake hates me and she hopes that I go to school because oneday ill get tired of loving him so much and getting nothing in return. I really don't think she knows her son like I do. If he hates me he wouldn't be with me. He wouldnt have bought me a car and he wouldnt put up with my shit.
She told Erin and Adam they are no longer welcome at her house and they can not come see her for the holidays. She deleted Jake and Erins phone number out of her phone. Toni told me to call her when I have the baby and she will not be comming to see us at the hospital. She donated Kales things to the thrift store and No longer will watch him when needed or on weekends. She doesnt want Kale to grow up hating her like Jake does...
She said all her children hate her..

plus she put fucking words in my mouth.

She said I told her that Jake told me that He hates her...WTF I wouldn't say that to her. Toni is crazy!!!! Jake has never said He hates his mother.

I don't know what to belive.

All this started because Toni went to Erins house to decorate. Adam didnt like any of the decorations and that pissed her off. Then Toni and Adam got into it.

Adam is an asshole. He never liked Erins parents. He always has to be with Erin. Yeah one of those guys..hes on her ass like a annoying Butt Hair.

Toni is crazy. Everyone knows it. She knows it. She said she hears 3 voices. She needs to get on something...weed is not working.